The Most Exciting Question
The portals inside the ordinary hum of life
Just a few minutes out of this morning’s himalayan yoga journey and I find myself here on a blank page, eyes closed, heart beating in awakened sensitivity.
What is this powerful feeling?
Ahh, yes. The fertile field of gratitude, I rest in your soft meadow now.
Perpetual thoughts and feelings of lack can dry up this luscious birthright state. In this modern world it’s too easy to get stuck in the wanting, leaking energy in our swadhisthana chakra and weakening our muladhara root, rather than recognizing the enoughness.
I am enough, I have enough.
When we get stuck in over-identification with ego - ahamkara - we suffer. The ego is the fluctuating, temporary aspect of our existence. The true self is the Soul - the unborn, undying Self.
In the yogic tradition there are three layers of conditioning curriculum we must walk through, realize the self within, integrate. Essentially they are 1) Personal karma (your unique samskaras), 2) Environment/localized karma (country, culture, family…), and 3) Collective karma (how the era you were born in shapes your world view).
This is our journey from karma to dharma, the mythic garden of evolution, right action, and higher purpose. It is in this garden, in all its fertile splendor, where our life becomes the song the Divine most wants to sing through us. It’s what we came to realize.
There are portals everywhere in this life. The yoga class, the breath, the word, the window, the sip of tea. This is the lived truth of a world seen through awakened eyes. When you truly see, you see a different world.
I remember the first time I began to truly see + feel in a new way. I was living a superficial life in Atlanta and sat down on a bench in Piedmont Park mid-walk. This was a big Saturn-return season of life where my soul was beginning to wake up my sleeping body and anxious mind, but this was the first time I tasted any morsel of samadhi. I felt my body lie down on the bench, my eyes already closed, and I felt myself inside a warm pool of water. The sensations were beyond an ordinary dip in a hot tub, as it felt as if golden light was pulsating from my heart to circulate throughout my entire body. I was back in the womb, being held in a love I’d only really experienced through psychedelics or plant medicine. I don’t know how long I was suspended there, but I know I came out of that sober spontaneous somatic meditation with new eyes.
I began to feel my life again for the first time in many years. I was no longer caged inside the anxiety, numb to everything. I was free again. Free to feel, free to choose, free to see, free to create.
The opportunity to reorient or elevate our consciousness is everywhere - especially in the hum of the ordinary. Life on earth is littered with mundane-magical subtle openings where the spiritual and worldly life can more deeply integrate, where life can become the ceremony.
Portals emerge in relationship — relationship to our conventional senses and extrasensory experience. They are recognized through attunement to the moment.
Gratitude was the first feeling that changed my life. The bench and the feeling were portals, both found and forged, that transported me into God and I “woke up” from that moment feeling like life was worth living again.
My spiritual awakening of my late twenties is still the most exciting thing that has happened to me in this life. It completely transformed my relationship to life. I’m almost suspended in breathless beauty all over again just allowing myself to reach back into that old feeling, feel it all anew. God intervened, lifted the veils, and my Soul woke up from a deep sleep. This reminds me of one of my favorite quotes:
The God question is the most exciting question
At the heart of everything: the question of God
The reason so many people turn away from religion [spirituality] is because the God question has died for them
[due to repetitive dead language]
To me it is still the most exciting question—John O Donohue
The ‘God question’ is certainly still the most exciting question of my life. I’m not seeking an answer, but to live a real adventure of awakening. It creates an aliveness in the most mundane of life experiences - putting the dogs out again, paying bills, doing the dishes.
Intimacy with God is everywhere, in everything - from the hum of the ordinary to the shakti-rich states of God/Goddess consciousness where God is vividly, and personally alive to us.
Gratitude is the seeing heart, the alchemists’s lens. God is quietly present in every room - seen, felt, or not.
This is what I serve in my everyday living and in my life’s work - this profound feeling and embodied experience of Love and Grace. This Love is God, This God is Love. And life is a doorway into Tantra, where gratitude lights and warms the path beneath our feet in the endless Now.
Ways to enter the experiential together:
Nectar Body Kriya Kundalini on Monday afternoons, 4pm MST (50-60min class, $11)
1:1 Sessions - Akashic Alchemy, Dharma Coaching, and (soon) Tantric Temple Sessions (Pricing ranging from $222-333)
Nectar Body Yoga Teacher Training - October 2025, Nevada City California
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In Love + the Adventure of God,
Dani